My heart is heavy, slowly sinking- I redirect my desperate thinking

I have survived the Pssa's. Though I will say that they were a big pain in the ass. i Hat to drive to Pittsburgh 4 times. I had 5 panic attacks yesterday. The weirdest things triggered them too. My alarm clock going off, hitting a pothole, silly things like that. I think it might have been that I was physically exhausted yesterday, and my body just couldnt take anymore.

I saw V for Vendetta. Amazing movie. You all must see it. I loved it. Um... What else. There really isnt anything else. Im still sick. Not getting better either. Thats it.

Okay. Goodbye!

Im sick again. It went from 'strep throat' to a 'sinus infection'. So I still cant hear really well, and Im even more miserable. I hate doctors. They never diagnose me correctly.

Camron and Cayse are doing well. Still really small. I actually them. Look, I have proof for those of you who dont believe me!

 

 

My dad gets his final stent put in next week. So hopefully he will be feeling alot better.

 

Im still really far behind on school work, and I really need help, but theres no one to help me. I cant understand Geometry. Math is just impossible for me. And im Really far behind in English too, and english is my best subject. I think I just have too big of a class load.

Im determining whether or not to keep up with this thing anymore. None of you are ever on anymore, and never reply to my entries...So Im not sure.

So, I have a whole new outlook on this stuff. Why do i bother getting so upset over something so little, when there are so many bigger and better things to be concerned about? But I figure, Hes not even worth my breath. He doesnt deserve one second of my time, and I'm done with it. He has no idea what hes lost, and that was the biggest mistake he could have ever made in his entire life. I'm much better than that.

Sorta having a rough day.

Camron and Cayse were born though. So Thats good.Real exctied about that.They are in one of those little glass case thingers.. yeah

Happy Birthday Carmine. I miss you.

Sir Fluffsalot Pipsqueak. haha He is a sleepy ball of fluff.

 

Beware: She may look cute, but she is actually the worlds largest leech.

I think this one is cute. Spunky and Nikki.

Okay. Thats all for now.